02.04.08
Work
So, here I am at a very different place in life… I have been working and being with my boys and it is an adjustment for all, but we will make it. I will make it.
I have been reading the Kite Runner and so far it is a great book. I have been reading it on my breaks at work and it has been a great stress reliever. It is about 2 boys who live in Afghanistan and one is a servant boy while the other is the one being served. They were born close together and feed from the same breast. They loved each other like brothers and had an amazing bond until one fateful day where everything changed for the 2 boys. It is a very interesting and sad story so I have more to go and I heard it only gets sadder. A good read though.
I enjoy working again and given where I work I should not be enjoying it?? Forget that, I enjoy meeting people and working hard. I love to keep moving and busy. Good stuff, plus I need the money..:)
Well, I am off to work in a few hours, but thought I would come here for a moment. Until next time…
01.10.08
The End
Very few will understand what I have had to do, but that is ok. I have learned so much through this hard time in my life. Actually it seems like it has been really hard all along until recently. I have made a decision that very few will ever understand, but I am ok with that. So, to all who have been reading I thank you very much. I don’t know if I will come back and write here, but for now I am done. Soon you will all know the reason why. Take care!!
12.18.07
Reflection
Oh man, Oh man has it been tough and I know I am not the only one. I feel squeezed and squished and I wonder many times, how am I going to make it? This is my favorite time of year, but it is also one of the most hardest which seems crazy. Lately, I want to crawl in bed and stay there till it is all over, but really it is a great time for me to fight through and to continue to grow. I can help others when it seems all anyone wants to do is bite everyone’s head’s off. I can be a help and just give them a smile and listen even when I am having a hard time myself. It gives me reason to pause and look at the painful and scary time that Joseph and Mary went through leading up to Christ’s birth. Really, I am doing ok, because I am not carrying the Saviour and trying to find a place to birth Him. I am here through my own pain helping my family and friends and others know that through it all it is worth it. Thanks God for letting me see this today.
12.07.07
More Artwork
I wanted to share some more artwork that I have been working on with you guys. Everything was freehand and alot of my pictures are in charcoal which I found I love so much!!! Enjoy.
12.06.07
Black Friday, OH MY!!!
Mmmm, turkey in our bellies and full of pies as I nestle down for some sweet shut eye. Yes, my friends it was that time of year when I had to be ready and not fear, Black Friday was soon to be here. In a few hours of some shut eye, I had to let my body rest for the big event of this year.
I took out my paper the night before and made many plans on how to go from store to store. How do I better myself in this mess? How do I become a great success? Hmmm, as I hunkered down and I pushed the kids away and locked myself up to prepare for this day.
I poured and I poured over these ads, with my heart pumping faster and faster. I realized only 7 hours till Black Friday would be conquered. So I put my maps up and strategic plans and I prepared for bed with DVD,s Legos and playdoh dancing in my head. I tossed and I turned till it was time to rise at 3:05.
Yipee I cried!! The day has come when I take my friend and we bring our skills together, gear up to run, run, run. So I took a nice hot shower and I made sure to skower because I knew how people close together can smell so sour. So I did my part and washed away, then put layer upon layer to wait for the cold brisk day.
My friends came and I jumped in the car with anticipation and yelled out a, “whoop!” and there in the truck was our new addition . This year our secret weapon of brawn, her son-in-law was to come!!! “Yes,” I cried and I knew we would have an edge because there will be no bullies for me this year, I will have, no fear.
Long lines of cars waiting to park and then we got out. Circuit City, “Oh my;” the line was so long I began to sigh. “That is ok,” was my friends reply we made it to the beginning of the Target line.
Oh it was freezing that glorious day as we paitently waited at bay. I looked around as the lines kept getting bigger and we came together like a group of penguins on a cold winter day. I never thought I would get that cozy with so many strangers, but I rememberd that nicy hot shower. “One hour left,” I heard someone shout and for a moment we broke out. There was still a happy murmer all around, but I knew within the hour they would start to be dour.
My friend and body guard at my side we heard many stamps of feet like a great herd of horses waiting for that big start of the race and then the time was about near and all we could hear was the Target employee shout. “You people!! you will be civil in here or else we take everything away and kick you out our doors with not even one item.” Yeah, was the cry we couldn’t agree more, now open up those big doors and on the count of three we started to pile in.
We had our strategy and my friend grabbed a cart while our body guard was so smart, off he went to the electronics isle and saved our lives from the pile. I quickly walked to where I needed to be and then I tried to meet up with my party with glee. “Oh no, I cried.” The aisles came alive. I was stuck in the middle and I could not see for miles. “Help,” I thought as I could feel my lungs squeeze, we were stuck as stuck as could be.
I quickly turned on my survival mode and I manuevered my way out of that massive flow. I reached my dear friends and we were on our way through the checkout for this day.
“Yes, we cried all in three, for we were out at 6:23!
My job was done for this year. I hope that my kids will not fear for mommy has saved Santas’ behind again, this year.
Until next time…
11.14.07
Update
It has been a long time since I felt like writing. I guess that amazing streak of reading and painting has left me for a moment. I have been into learning how to draw better so that I have better techniques so that has been fun. I think because of the Holidays I have been into other crafty projects so it hasn’t been all that bad in the artistic world. 
This past weekend my good friend since the 7th grade came for a visit and he hasn’t been “home” for 2 years. It was so good to see him and reconnect face to face and we had the best time. He also was able to sit down with me and show me some cool painting techniques. That was so much fun it makes me want to look into taking some painting classes. We also had fun talking a politics in which I am sorry to say, I love to talk with people about. A side you may have not known about me and boy did we ever have a “passionate” discussion about things. All in all it was a great time visiting with my bud and on top of all that he showed me how to play speed scrabble which was so much fun!!
I can’t believe that it is Thanksgiving next week. I am excited though because I love this time of year and the only part I dread it when it is all over and we have to get through the rest of the winter. I may be going out again this year for Black Friday and for those of you who remember last year’s story I am sure this year would be as entertaining.
Well, I am off to practice some drawing. Until next time…
10.26.07
Next Few Months
This has been a pretty tough week as far as my emotions go. I painted a few more pictures, but now I am afraid to post them. Maybe because I look at painters who can really paint and I know that is not a good thing to pit myself against. I guess it is trying something out for the first time and then sharing with people for the first time and your heart feels so vulnerable. I may post them at some point, but I thought that my emotions where to whack for me to try and post them.
I went to my GP on Tuesday to have a plan for this winter in which depression is a bit harder for me. So we have a plan and hopefully this will ease up some of the load for me. My heart is still a bit raw from recent events in my life, but I have been getting through my emotions in the way God intended me to. This is in no way an easy process for me as it still seems really scary, but it is way better than the ways that I used to deal with them. So I just wanted to warn those that are in my life and reading this. Do not take anything personal from me in these next few months if I don’t respond in the way that you would like or I seem distant, but you can give me a hug or two!! Of course you can pray for me, but I would love to hear that you are.
I will continue writing songs and painting and do what God wants me to next in my life. Take care…
10.21.07
Holocaust Memorial
Here is the Holocaust memorial that was in Boston when I went this past August with some of my friends. There were six of these towers and if you look closely there are numbers all up and down the glass of all the people who died during this time. You can walk under these towers like in a pathway and read some true stories of how some of these people survived. I thought it was pretty powerful to see so many numbers on these huge glass towers.
Just wanted to share with you this powerful Memorial.
10.19.07
My 2nd Painting
This is my 2nd picture and I absolutely love it!! I had so much fun painting this picture and I had no clue what it was going to be. It was so much fun playing with the colors and brush strokes. When I showed it to my family they were shocked and asked if I had really painted it. I was still asking myself that same question when I was finished with it.
Enjoy!!
First acrylic painting
Ok guys, it took forever, but I finally managed to download all the right things to get this picture on here. This is my first acrylic picture that I painted and I know it turned out a little odd I was just trying out different brush techniques and this came out. I think it looks pretty cool, but that is my opinion and you don’t have to say whether you like it or not. I don’t mind either way.
Enjoy!
